Scars...

If there is one thing I struggle with more then my braces it's all the scars I have! They are all over my feet, lower back(My worst in my opinion) and my belly! My feet are pretty much ALWAYS hidden by socks or long pants even around my roommates! I have never worn crop tops and bathing suits.... we will get into that in a minute! I have had friends and family say "Your scars make you even more beautiful" and while I try to believe that a little voice inside me creeps in and fills me with doubt.... "No one wants to see those ugly marks!" "Cover those things up they look terrible!" "No one can love someone with that many scars!"... Those are all things that go thru my head when I start to even THINK about showing my scars... So I go back to covering them up! I have given up on outfits that I thought were adorable because they show my scars. I always try to wear long shirts so if I bend over my back scar doesn't show and I have always went with the bathing suit that covers everything... Even if I absolutely LOVE the one that doesn't! I will be honest it has even kept me from dating in the past because I was (and still am!) afraid a guy will take one look at my scars and be disgusted and bolt! I am not sure I will ever FULLY be confident showing off my scars. I am definitely trying to work on not letting it keep me from the outfits or bathing suits I love! I know my scars are apart of who I am and the many struggles I have had to overcome and that they should be celebrated not covered up! I just have to keep reminding myself of that daily and stop letting fear and anxiety get the best of me! But that last part is definitely easier said then done.... 



💕Hugs💕

 Kelley 



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